Constantine Jefferson: Everyday…everyday you’re not dead in the ground and you wake up in the mornin’, you gonna have to make some decisions. Gotta ask yourself this question; am I gonna believe all them bad things them fools said about me today?
You hear me?
Am I gonna believe all them bad things them fools say about me today? Alright?
what is it about Paris that makes it so attractive?
(Source: darkandchaos)
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I really really want to be culturally knowledgeable.
I want to be able to recognize any song that flows from the radio, explain about the artist, talk intelligently about the background of the song. I want to be able to talk fluently about an art piece, and notice the symbols and context of the piece. I want to be able to memorize an inspirational quote from a good book.
That is why i really really wanted to take AP Art History along with AP World History. Screw you Mr. Lambie, for messing up the schedule so bad that i cannot take anything ㅗㅗㅗ
Don’t you dare pretend that you know my pain
I know behind my back you think me insane
I’m losing my mind… right…nowww….
(Source: mrgolightly)
When monday is over, i am going to burn all my ap bio materials and dance in front of the fire. LOLOLOL can’t wait to see it burn… BURNNN BURNNNN
Salar de Uyuni - Bolivia
The largest and highest salt flat in the world, covers an area of 10,582 square Kilometers, at an altitude of 3,650 meters (11,975 feet) above sea level, in the dry season the salt planes are completely dry but in the wet season lake Poopó overflows and covers Salar de Uyuni with a thin layer of water making it the largest natural mirror in the world, giving it the effect of floating in the sky.
Underneath the surface is lake Ubrini, around 2-20 meters deep, this lake is a concentration of sodium chloride, lithium chloride and magnesium chloride in water. The “islands” found around the center are actually tops of ancient volcanoes.
The area is a perfect breeding ground for flamingos. The algae provides food specially Laguna Colorada which is not far away from Salar de uyuni, it’s pink color is caused by red sediments and pigmentation of the algae.
depressing thoughts
-고등학교에서 공부 열심히해서 대학을 가고
대학에서 치열하게 경쟁하고 방학때마다 인턴해서 좋은 회사로 취직하고
좋은 회사에서 꾸준히 상사한테 눈치보이면서 살랑거리고
돈 많거나 왠만한 남자 만나서 애기낳고
또 돈벌어서 그 애기를 나와 똑같은 삶을 살게하는것
그럼 공부 왜 하지? 근데 왜 나는 이 쳇바퀴에서 못 벗어나지?
- It is very sad not to have a single language that you are really good at. You get scared of writing. You get scared of public speaking. You get scared of expressing your ideas. You get scared of talking to elders. I have always thought i was really fluent in Korean until i realized i have so many words that i don’t know and i couldn’t talk to my mom because there were some words that i couldn’t remember. Now i just feel like I have no capabilities of expressing myself in a delicate and advanced way. Its really…depressing.
-… and its not like I am going to major in Science and math, too. If i am going to major in humanities/business, not being able to express your ideas is a huge disadvantage. Am i ever going to excel in my field? i guess not.
-I think i became one of the most competitive person in this school. I have always tried to avoid getting into the SIS culture, but i think it is too late. But what’s more depressing is that i don’t have the ability to compete against other damn smart kids. When you realize that no matter how hard you try you can never get over your limits, it really is depressing.
-I feel like my personality is so shallow. I don’t talk about politics, science, or other intellectual stuff that i really admire about some people. My knowledge about everything is so shallow. Not knowing what other people seem to be comfortable about is also really depressing.
-I love my family more than anything else, and I am so sorry for my parents who have to cope with all my stresses. I feel so sorry for everything that they had to sacrifice for me, especially my mom. When an egg and a sperm fertilize, egg (apparently) donate all of its genetic material while the sperm only gives off centrioles and a nucleus. Its not relevant but she has gave me so much and i feel like i did not give anything in return.
-I hate myself feeling so inferior, but this pessimistic and depressing thoughts always sweep me every time i have time to think and reflect on my life. Thus I try to avoid looking back at myself. But it rarely works.
-I am paranoid about everything and this personality really tires me. I get tired of myself getting worried about the most tedious things, like forgetting to hand stuff in or grudging over a sentence that someone unconsciously slipped at me. Similarly, the memory of myself confronting someone always keeps me awake at night and really depresses me. I overreact to every single sentence that people say and everything that i do.
-I really can’t continue on with this writing because i am falling into the abyss of depression right now and i am scared (again) that i am exposing myself too much. But writing really does help in organizing my thoughts.
(Source: 2323dd15)
random thoughts
My dad is very against religion, especially with Christianity. He calls every christian with a derogatory term, and he constantly reminds me that christians are weak souls who cannot stand up for themselves but depend on a mightier figure.
I have always thought he was too on the extreme side and thus i shouldn’t really listen to him. But now that i am reading 1984 and reflecting on the meaning of life (yes i am very sentimental these days…), i think he actually has a valid point. Religion was created to help people withstand the hardships in life, and it gives an ultimate role model for people to look upto. Religion never disappoints people—it reassures them that there is something to look upto in this bizarre and bitchy world. I don’t necessarily think that having a religion is a bad thing, because everybody deserves to get an outlet for their stress.
Speaking of which, I am seriously going to consider going to church… lol Daddy’s girl isn’t daddy’s anymore!
remember remember remember…
(Source: leilockheart)
